healing gracie

...drained. That is how I feel right now. Just completely, drained, yet again. Nightmares have flared up, and they were just starting to get better. I feel so alone in dealing with them. There is nothing anyone can really do, or it is too much for them that they don't want anything to do with it. Others minimize it, avoid it or brush it off as nonsense, or that I am just trying to get attention. Maybe I ask for help the wrong way.

I wonder, if this whole time I have been "healing" if I really was making the progress I thought. That I really was getting better. Now it just feels like I was in people pleaser mode. It's because people only want to be around me when I am doing good, or okay. When my world is fine and nothing is broken. But when I start struggling again I get the cold shoulder. I feel like I have to start over.