...keep flooding in to my head. Memories of that long week I spent in the hospital last year. All these images keep flooding my mind...the ambulance, the doctors, me locked in a room crying. I felt so alone, betrayed, and I was terrified. I can see it all so clearly in my mind. And not only from my point of view, but also as if I am someone watching from the outside (which is really weird to me that I can picture that). It has been hard to deal with these memories again. It's a hard thing for me to look at and remember. I am glad that it happened because it needed to. I wouldn't be here if it hadn't. But it is still really hard to look at it. And right now my mind keeps being flooded with images of that event. There are some triggers for it, like when I see an ambulance drive by, or when I drive past the hospital I was first admitted to (which I pass almost every day). I wonder if I will be okay...if I will ever forgive myself for that happening.
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