healing gracie

As you all can tell, I have had another meltdown. I seem to be having a lot of those lately. This one was pretty bad, but not the worst I have had (thank goodness for that). So there I was this morning getting ready for work and I just felt so overwhelmed with life...I just couldn't find anything positive about it. Grrr...So there I was in the shower (why is it always in the shower) and I had my mind of hyper-drive going through every little negative thing...I don't remember much of it, to be honest. I do remember trying to talk myself out of healing...no luck there.

I really don't know what triggered it. I do know that once I get on the path of this negative self-talk and such, one thing leads into another and it gets really hard to control. Pretty much, the best way to deal with that is to prevent it. Needless to say, I was in tears by the end of my shower. I then proceeded in the usual routine of getting to work: breakfast (so I can let my hair dry naturally), finish drying hair, makeup, get dressed and go. I did manage to somewhat pull myself together.

All I can say is I hate it when I have meltdowns. But, I am going to try to look at this positively (try being the operative word there). I learned that I tend to do a lot of deep-thinking while I am in the shower. Since I can't avoid showering (that would be a disaster in and of itself), I am going to have to learn better how to control my thinking. That way I will decrease my chances of turning into a complete depressed mess when I am trying to get myself put together for the day. Well, I can be thankful for one thing...at least I'm not the Wicked Witch of the West and melt into a puddle of nothingness when I have water tossed on me.