healing gracie

Ok, I am going to try something new here. I don't want this blog to be just me talking all the time. It's too limited that way. So I am starting discussions. I will post a question and then add my own personal thoughts to it while at the same time encouraging the thoughts of others. I want this to be a place where we can discuss the different aspects of healing. Now in order for a discussion to work there has to be at least two people talking. This means at least 50% of this post is going to rely on you: my readers. This means comments people.

Enough of that, here is the first discussion question: What is healing anyway?

My thoughts:

For me, healing means feeling whole...not this empty feeling I feel most of the time. I believe it's like having something restored that was once lost or damaged. I also believe it means to overcome something, like illness, harmful actions of others, etc.

I think healing can happen quickly, instantaneously, and be perceptive. However, I believe that is not the case all the time...at least not for me. To be honest, I believe healing on my part will be a long journey, a journey of change. Most change will be slow and nearly imperceptible...it already has been. I believe there are parts of me that have been mended, and yet there are other parts of me which are still broken, still shattered fragments of myself. It can be discouraging at times...but I'm starting to believe that anything broken can be mended.

There are times where I wish the day would come that I am completely healed of the abuse...that there is nothing wrong...that I won't have anymore problems associated with the abuse of my childhood. But that is slightly unrealistic. Maybe I won't be completely healed of the flashbacks, the nightmares, or the pain that it caused me (and still causes me). I think, rather, that what will happen will be a peace of mind, a healing of my inner self despite the chaos the abuse has caused...and there is a lot of chaos.

I have to admit, I don't fully understand the concept of healing...I don't even understand fully what healing means and will mean to me. It's something I have to learn. It's something I have to trust in. I guess that is where faith comes in...

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All right...now it's your turn. I want to hear from my readers. What are your views on healing?