This week's song is so deep. That is all I have to say about it.
Song: Lost in Paradise
Artist: Evanescence
Album: Evanescence
I've been believing in something so distant
As if I was human
And I've been denying this feeling of hopelessness
In me, in me
All the promises I made
Just to let you down
You believed in me, but I'm broken
I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting
We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise
As much as I'd like the past not to exist
It still does
And as much as I'd like to feel like I belong here
I'm just as scared as you
I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting
We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise
Run away, run away
One day we won't feel this pain anymore
Take it all away
Shadows of you
Cause they won't let me go
Until I have nothing left
And all I feel is this cruel wanting
We've been falling for all this time
And now I'm lost in paradise
Alone, and lost in paradise
I did it again...fell in love with another song. And I must admit, this one was a surprise. This week's song is a very emotional one for me. When I first heard it I was surprised at how strongly I could connect with it. I was thinking about how familiar it was to me, because I have been there. I have been in that place where I felt my heart was broken, and that was it, that was the end. Here I was in this helpless state pleading for release, to be delivered from the pain I was experiencing. The lyrics to this song just explain it almost perfectly...in fact, I'm going to do something a little different with this song: I am going to try to explain how I relate to this song. This week's song is called "My Heart is Broken" by Evanescence.
I also love the music video for this song. I love the emotion that Amy Lee (lead singer) brings to the music. It's probably why I connected with their other music when I was younger, was because of the emotion in it. And it's why I really connected with this song in my present life, because I can see myself in it.
Song: My Heart is Broken
Album: Evanescence
Artist: Evanescence
This is how I see the beginning of my healing process. I faced the pain after so many years of denying it. I try to close my eyes pretend it didn't happen...if I don't see it or acknowledge it, then it's not real. When I finally do accept that it happened I really did wonder if it was possible for me to even heal from it. I was afraid that I was broken forever, broken beyond repair. This is where it gets personal for me. For the first part of my healing I really felt lost and that something was missing. And without that critical peace I would remain lost and broken. That piece was my Heavenly Father. Through the bitterness and anger I had pulled myself away from the One who could truly heal me. In the line "torn away from you" I see the "you" as my Heavenly Father. It really depicts how I had separated myself from my Heavenly Father. That realization hit me hard.
My heart is broken
I learned the hard way that I couldn't go on living the way I was...mad at God and hating life. And hating myself. Going back was not a possibility. Going back to where I came meant saying no to healing. The only thing that would help was moving forward...into arms outstretched with healing. I was just existing until then...I wasn't really living. I have come to realize now that I can't live without my Heavenly Father. If I don't let Him in, then I truly am only half alive.
My heart is broken
Change
I began to change. I began to see the light. I began to have hope. I began to believe again. I began to live. I began to heal. I couldn't deny that anymore...I had to say goodbye to all the darkness and negativity that had haunted me for so long and hindered my healing.
My heart is broken
My heart is broken
This song is awesome! That is all I have to say...okay, I will say more. I LOVE this song for some reason...just love it. It reminds me so much of what I would do as a child to "escape" from the horrors that I was faced with daily. I would often daydream...imagine myself in a different place away from the pain and the fear. I would close my eyes, and there I was in a different world far more perfect than the one I was living in. It was my escape...it was my paradise. This week's song is Paradise by Coldplay.
Just a note, I have no idea what is up with the elephant...though it is kind of trippy.
Song: Paradise
Artist: Coldplay
Album: Mylo Xyloto
When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach so
She ran away in her sleep
and dreamed of
Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise
Every time she closed her eyes
When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
and the bullets catch in her teeth
Life goes on, it gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear a waterfall
In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes
In the night the stormy night away she'd fly
and dreams of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
She'd dream of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh
lalalalalalalalalalala
And so lying underneath those stormy skies
She'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh
This is a great song about beauty. This is for all the girls/women who struggle with finding themselves beautiful. I will admit that I struggle with this myself...I often wonder if I am beautiful. But, I realize that I am often comparing myself to the world's standard of beauty, which is artificial. True beauty is more than skin deep. True beauty is accepting who you are. This song has helped to remind me of that...that there cannot be a more beautiful you. This week's song is "More Beautiful You" by Jonny Diaz.
Hey there! I know it's been a while. Life seems to be getting busier. Now that it's a new year I plan on making some changes to this blog. One of those changes is a feature I like to call "My Playlist." This is a cool musical feature that I have added under the My Pages section. The playlist includes most of the music I have shared with you all as the Song of the Week. Be sure to check it out! http://healing-gracie.blogspot.com/p/my-playlist.html
I know I have posted this song before as a song of the week, but I just had to post it again. For some reason the message in it has been really resonating with me lately. I heard it on the radio the other night and just felt that I had to post it again.
The message is so powerful. You are more...than your past mistakes...than the choices that you make...You are more...than the problems you face, that you create... You are more...than what you have done, and what's been done to you. You are have not fallen too low to love. Even if you feel broken, you are more than that. You are more...you deserve to be loved.
This is a message I have been trying to get myself to believe in since I left the hospital 5 months ago. That I am more than what happened to me then...that I am more than those choices that I made. That I am more now...that I am still growing, changing, and being remade.
"Your are More" by Tenth Avenue North
I don't know why, but I really like this song. It's from a group I used to listen to in my middle school/high school days. I stopped listening to them because a lot of their stuff was negative, depressing, etc. But I found this new song of theirs and I just love it! For me, it's my "angry song," the song I listen to when I am feeling upset and like I am being rundown by my past abusers. For me it depicts the constant struggle of breaking free from being entangled to the past...and it is a fight...a difficult fight where you sometimes feel like you are failing, falling, spiraling down. It's kind of my way of fighting back against that...my way of kicking butt and saying: "Hell no, you are not going to mess with my life anymore. I am going to do what I want with my life. You can't control me! I know who I am and you aren't going to drag me down with you!"
This week's song is called "What You Want" by Evanescence.
Song: What You Want
Artist: Evanescence
Album: Evanescence
Do what you what you want, if you have a dream for better
Do what you what you want till you don't want it anymore
(remember who you really are)
Do what you what you want, your world's closing in on you now
(it isn't over)
Stand and face the unknown
(got to remember who you really are)
Every heart in my hands like a pale reflection
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe we can break through
Do what you what you want, you don't have to lay your life down
(it isn't over)
Do what you what you want till you find what you're looking for
(got to remember who you really are)
But every hour slipping by screams that I have failed you
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
There's still time close your eyes only love will guide you home
Tear down the walls and free your soul
Till we crash we're forever spiraling down, down, down, down
Hello, hello, its only me infecting everything you love
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to learn forgiveness
Hello, hello remember me?
I'm everything you can't control
Somewhere beyond the pain there must be a way to believe we can break through
(remember who you really are)
Do what you what you want
I just had to share this song! Very powerful!!! When I listened to it for the first time I thought about myself...how it felt to be abused, how I felt broken, lost, worthless. But now I am rising up...I am living my life despite the horrible things that happened to me. And I am doing it for me.
This song of the week is called "Skyscraper" by Demi Lovato
Song: Skyscraper
Artist: Demi Lovato
I am finally getting around to posting the lyrics...I know, it took me about a week...sorry ;)
Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Go run run run I'm gonna stay here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper
So, this song of the week might throw you all for a loop. I usually don't listen to the harder rock stuff anymore, but I still really love this song and the message behind it. This one's for all you head-bangin' rockers out there. Okay, maybe it's not that quite a head-bangin' song...but it's pretty darn close. The song of the week is "Awake and Alive" by Skillet.
Song: Awake and Alive
Artist: Skillet
Album: Awake
I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms
It's getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breathe into me at last
[CHORUS]
I'm awake I'm alive
Now I know what I believe inside
Now it's my time
I'll do what I want 'cause this is my life
here (right here), right now (right now)
I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive
I'm at war with the world cause I
Ain't never gonna sell my soul
I've already made up my mind
No matter what I can't be bought or sold
When my faith is getting weak
And I feel like giving in
You breathe into me again
[CHORUS]
Waking up waking up [4x]
In the dark
I can feel you in my sleep
In your arms I feel you breathe into me
Forever hold this heart that I will give to you
Forever I will live for you
[CHORUS]
Waking up waking up [4x]
Whenever I am feeling down, I often turn to this song to help lift me up. Whether I am being hard on myself, or was feeling hurt by someone else, this song can help...if I let it, that is. There are days when I would turn this song on and sing along to it. And I mean I would sing...really loud (but good...I think...I don't know if I'm a good singer). I would sing with all my heart...the whole eyes closed, really feeling the music singing. Yep, funny to picture, right? I must admit, I haven't done this too recently...and that's probably a good thing.
This week's song is "Beautiful Ending" by BarlowGirl.
p.s. sorry for the advertisement before the video...I had no choice.
Song: Beautiful Ending
Artist: BarlowGirl
Album: Another Journal Entry
Oh tragedy has taken so many
Love lost cause it all forgot who you were
And it scares me to think that I would choose
My life over You
Oh my selfish heart
Divides me from You
It tears us apart
So tell me what is our ending
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful
Oh why do I let myself let go
Of hands that painted the stars and holds tears that fall
And the pride of my heart makes me forget
It's not me but you
Who makes the heart beat
I'm lost without you
You're dying for me
So tell me what is our ending
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful
Will my life find me by Your side
Your love is beautiful
So beautiful
At the end of it all I wanna be in your arms [x4]
So tell me what is our ending
Will it be beautiful
So beautiful
Will my life find me by your side
Cause your love is beautiful
So beautiful
This is an AWESOME song! That's rights, all-caps. I could seriously listen to this song over and over and over and not get sick of it. The lyrics are really positive and uplifting, and it has a nice modern sound. I am betting most of you haven't heard of this band. They are called Building 429 performing this week's song "Listen to the Sound."
Song: Listen to the Sound
Artist: Building 429
Album: Listen to the Sound
Are you in over your head?
Are you in water so deep you're drowning?
Do you think you've been left,
And there is no one to feel your hurting?
Well everybody has been there
And everybody's felt lost
If you're in over your head
Lift it up
Lift it up
[CHORUS]
Oh, listen to the sound of hope
That's rising up
Over your old horizon
Listen to the sound
Listen to the sound
And listen to the sound of a new beginning of
This is where the old is ending
Listen to the sound
Listen to the sound
I hear you say you're alone
I hear you sayin' that you'll never make it
I've got to tell you you're wrong
'Cause I've been down this path you're taking
You'll never know what faith is
Till you don't understand
Sometimes it takes the silence
To finally hear His plan
[CHORUS]
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
I once was lost,
But now I'm found
[x2]
[CHORUS]
His grace is reaching for us
His grace is reaching out
Listen to the sound
Listen to the sound
Wherever you are
[x2]
I just barely discovered this song! Heard it for the first time today. I don't know why, this song really clicked with me right now. Just with how I feel right now. This week's song is "Drifting" by Plumb.
Song: Drifting
Artist: Plumb featuring Dan Haseltine
Album: Drifting (single)
*I do not have the lyrics yet. This song was just released only 5 days ago, so I have yet to find the lyrics anywhere (with the exception of the ones in the actual music video, of course).
I have another Fireflight song for you guys. I just love this song (then again, I love most of their songs). I decided to post the live version of this song, which is also the acoustic version. Such a good song! It's a brand new day, so what are you going to do about it?
Song: Brand New Day
Artist: Fireflight
Album: Unbreakable
I'm waking up
The world is turning
The sun is shining again
I'm holding on
To things I shouldn't
It's time to let them go
When I've been on a losing streak
Hit so hard I couldn't speak
But when I hear Your voice it fades away
[CHORUS]
And I can hear You say
It's a brand new day
The pain goes away
I'm headed for the door
And I'm going home
I'm going home
I'm going home
I'm going home
Your love, it burns
Away my darkness
You guide me when I'm blind
You are the light
That shines inside me
Showing me I'm
So much more
When I've been on a losing streak
Hit so hard I couldn't speak
But when I hear Your voice it fades away
[CHORUS]
Take me into Your arms
My home lies within Your heart
And I can hear You say
It's a brand new day
[CHORUS x2]
This one is for all you hard-rockers out there...well, it's harder rock for me anyway. This is a great Christian band! Honestly, I could probably post all of their songs...oh wait...I already have posted one of their songs (see song of the week: for those who wait). This week's song is called "Unbreakable" by Fireflight. All I have to say is: GREAT SONG!
Song: Unbreakable
Artist: Fireflight
Album: Unbreakable
Where are the people that accused me?
The ones who beat me down and bruised me
They hide just out of sight
Can't face me in the light
They'll return but I'll be stronger
[CHORUS]
God, I want to dream again
Take me where I've never been
I want to go there
This time I'm not scared
Now I am unbreakable, it's unmistakable
No one can touch me
Nothing can stop me
Sometimes it's hard to just keep going
But faith is moving without knowing
Can I trust what I can't see?
To reach my destiny
I want to take control but I know better
[CHORUS]
Forget the fear it's just a crutch
That tries to hold you back
And turn your dreams to dust
All you need to do is just trust
[CHORUS x2]
I just had to post another song of the week. Just had to. I LOVE this song! It's message is very powerful...whether you are healing or not...but in a way, I think everyone is on a healing journey. Everyone is working to become whole. We all have a purpose...none of us are worthless, even though we may feel like that at times. We have so much to offer. We matter. It can be scary to put ourselves out there, to reach within ourselves and find out how much power we really have...and to realize how much potential we have within us. We can become so much. This song is a challenge to arise and be everything you were made to be. Okay, enough with that "deep," yet brief tangent. This song is just great. I love the wording...it's so poetic and uplifting. Here is the other song of the week: "Arise" by Flyleaf.
Song: Arise
Artist: Flyleaf
Album: Memento Mori
Tell the swine
We will make it out alive
There's a note in the pages of the book
So Sleep tonight,
We'll sleep dreamlessly this time
When we awake we'll know that everything's alright
And sing to me about the end of the world
End of these hammers and needles for you
Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for,
There's still strength left in us yet
Hold on to the world we all remember dying for,
There's still hope left in it yet
The snow on your face, and your razor blades
The twilight is bruised and there you lie
And sing to me, about the end of the world
End of these hammers and needles for you
We'll cry tonight, but in the morning we are new
Stand in the sun, we'll dry your eyes
Hold on to the world we all remember fighting for,
There's still strength left in us yet
Hold on to the world we all remember dying for,
There's still hope left in it yet
And sing
Sing
Arise
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
Arise and be,
all the you dreamed, all that you dreamed
I heard this song on the radio a few days ago and I thought: "I just have to post this as one of the songs of week!" So here it is! This week's song is called "Healing Begins" by Tenth Avenue North. It's a really good song about the healing that comes from the Atonement, and how it is available to all. I will let it speak for itself now.
Song: Healing Begins
Artist: Tenth Avenue North
Album: The Light Meets the Dark
So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you're good
And you can't believe it's not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside
So let 'em fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now
[CHORUS]
This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark
Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find
That the shame won't disappear
So let it fall down
There's freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We're here now
We're here now, oh
[CHORUS]
Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don't fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us
This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you're broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark
This song is something I needed to hear. I have been so afraid of moving lately. So afraid that I don't have what it takes to move forward. The lyrics of this song really resonated with me. "I dare you to move. I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor. I dare you to move...like to today never happened before." This song does a really good job of describing life, the resistance we all feel, and yet how important it is we keep on moving. This week's song is called "Dare You to Move" by Switchfoot.
There are two versions of this song, both of which I am posting.
Song: Dare You to Move
Artist: Switchfoot
Album: Learning to Breathe & Beautiful Letdown
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here, everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next? What happens next?
[CHORUS]
I dare you to move, I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move, I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here, the tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
[CHORUS]
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
[CHORUS]
Here is the song of the week. It is called "For Those Who Wait" by Fireflight. Enjoy!
Song: For Those Who Wait
Artist: Fireflight
Album: For Those Who Wait
This is for those who wait
Another day, another waiting game
A little different but it's still the same
I am here, but where's the one I'm longing for?
I'm having trouble feeling all alone
Will my heart ever find a home?
I want to hope but sometimes I just don't know
I know I'm not the only one
[CHROUS]
So we sing a lullaby to the lonely hearts tonight
Let it set your heart on fire, let it set you free
When you're fighting to believe
In a love that you can't see
Just know there is a purpose
For those who wait
I want to open up my eyes
I know that all I need is time
I'm growing stronger every single day
God, I'm going to lean into You now
Letting go of all my fear and doubt
I can't do this on my own so I'll give You control
I know I'm not the only one
[CHORUS]
The pressure makes us stronger
The struggle makes us hunger
The hard lessons make the difference
The pressure makes us stronger
The struggle makes us hunger
The hard lessons make the difference
And the difference makes it worth it
[CHORUS]
And now it's time for the song of the week! This week's song is "All Around Me" by the band Flyleaf. I love this band, which I am sure I have mentioned in a previous post. Their songs are amazing and most of the time talk about overcoming the hard stuff in life...even when you feel like you are broken. I love the music video for this song...it's simple but a really interesting concept (and possibly something I would want to try...heck, I will put it on the bucket list). Enjoy!
Song: All Around Me
Artist: Flyleaf
Album: Flyleaf
My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you
This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you
I'm alive, I'm alive
[CHORUS]
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place
The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you
I'm alive
I'm alive
[CHORUS]
So I cry
The light is white
And I see you
I'm alive
I'm alive
I'm alive
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing
Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed
Here is this week's song: I Need You to Love Me by BarlowGirl.
Song: I Need You to Love Me
Artist: BarlowGirl
Album: Another Journal Entry
Why, why are You still here with me
Didn't You see what I've done?
In my shame I want to run and hide myself
But it's here I see the truth
I don't deserve You
[CHORUS]
But I need You to love me, and I
I won't keep my heart from You this time
And I'll stop this pretending that I can
Somehow deserve what I already have
I need You to love me
I, I have wasted so much time
Pushing You away from me
I just never saw how You could cherish me
'Cause You're a God who has all things
And still You want me
[CHORUS]
Your love makes me forget what I have been
Your love makes me see who I really am
Your love makes me forget what I have been