healing gracie

I must admit...this is going to be harder than I thought to open up about the deep, dark stuff on here. Yes, there is a little fear...okay, a lot of fear. But also, I have come to realize how hard it is to write about something so deep, so personal. I hardly ever talk about the personal stuff...some would say I hardly talk at all.

This whole writing about my feelings is not new...I try to do that with journal writing or free writing. But this is different. It's kind of strange for me because I know that what I write is going to be read by someone somewhere. It's a different kind of writing and one in which I am trying to get used to.

As my title so implies, I am still somewhat hesitant about spewing my guts out on this blog. I want to...it's just very uncomfortable. I really have to push myself to do it...to take time to write and to really think about my past, the abuse, my healing, and so forth. It takes a lot of energy and it takes a lot of facing what I fear.

I'm still going to go through with it...I'm still going to open up at some point. Maybe not as soon as I would like (or as soon as my readers would like), but it is going to happen.

Deep breath...here I go...