healing gracie

I can't sleep right now so I am taking a moment to write something for this blog. I'm going to write about something random.

I have been thinking...I haven't done any art since I got out of the hospital. None at all. I haven't drawn, colored, sketched, anything. I just haven't had any desire to do art at all. I have tried to sit down, pull out a piece of paper and colored pencils and just go at it. But nothing comes. I don't know what to draw. I don't know what colors to use. When I do art I try to express what I feel...and right now I don't know what I feel. Okay, I lied there somewhat. I do know somewhat how I feel. I feel exhausted. I feel overwhelmed. I feel abandoned. I feel confused. I feel lost. I don't know how to express that, though. I can't seem to visualize it. Why can't I see it? It's kind of frustrating.