healing gracie

It's hard for me to make decisions. It has been for a while now. From big things like what classes I should take at school, or what career should I try to pursue, to little things like what I should wear or what to eat for lunch.

Lately I've been faced with some pretty tough decisions, about whether to give up going to school for now (graphic design) and focus my energy on what I am truly passionate about: photography. The pros of going to school: I would learn more skills that would help in the job market; I would be doing something productive...not staying stagnant; It pushes me to do something new; It helps me to learn the technical skills needed to my creativity can be unhindered. The cons: I could be dedicating more time to graphic design when I'm not really sure that's what I want to go into; The financial...I won't share many details there; Also, if I pursue it this fall semester I will most likely lose the means to be able to continue in photography.

I've had people ask "What is your gut telling you? What is the Spirit telling you?" (Just a side-note, when I refer the the Spirit I am referring to the Holy Ghost. In the LDS Church we believe that Heavenly Father often speaks to us through the Holy Ghost, providing guidance, promptings, etc. to help direct and guide us, or to warn us). The answer is often "nothing." It's that or I just can't seem to recognize what feelings/impressions are there.

To be honest, I feel like I am so out of touch with both myself and the Holy Ghost that I don't have much of a definitive answer to follow. It makes me feel so powerless--It probably doesn't help that I am pretty sick as I am typing this right now, which makes that feeling even stronger than it really is--I don't like it. I feel like there is so much that I can't change in my life (for the better) because I've already made to many bad/unwise decisions, or I haven't made a decision in a timely manner.

I'm so afraid right now of choosing the wrong thing. Again, making a bad choice that will only hinder my progression. I know what I want to do...it's just can I do it? And is it the right thing?